Friday, December 17, 2010, 4:45 PM
Finally the holidays are here. I've been anticipating it ever since forever. Now, it is time to have everything back on track. Be it from my morning run to the updates of all photos etc.Life.. well, i cant seem to say much about it. Mostly, everything just happened the way how surroundings want it to be. Sometimes i feel as though I'm leading a life for others. Definitely i don't feel the contentment deep down inside. All i can say is that, everything visible now is all facade. All I'm holding on is those words that says, "For my future ahead, that would for sure benefit me later on" or simply "For my own good".
But I've yet to REALLY see any. Nah, I'm not saying that i don't see anything. Well, i did. But to a certain extend ONLY. Still not up to my expectation.
As much as i dislike boredom, i dislike having to be in an 'adult' atmosphere even more. I'm not hinting on about the hatred being an adult. I like it though. The challenge really excites me. But hey, in every adults, there's a kid in them. And i definitely don't wish to shun that playfully mischievous character in me. Hell no! Yes, you can now say I'm annoyed.
Bring me to the playground and I'd love to climb up those walls and jump around. Bring me to the crowded place and I'd love to run here and there playing catching. Bring me to the toysr'us and I'd love to have myself vigorously moved around, holding a swordplay. Gosh! That would really arouse me much! Basically silence and boredom wipe me out!
What i intended to do now is to start everything afresh. To be back to who i used to be. Bottom line is to get back my happiness, which is to feel back the contentment in my life! (: Just like old days... having to lead my life fully, with doing just anything my own way. However definitely with a strong firm faith at heart. To know what's right and what's wrong is important, in order to prevent myself from digressing towards the negatives side. heh.
I'll be back.
..and to you, i need to let you go. Pardon me for everything. Have me out of your heart, i plead.
