Wednesday, December 8, 2010, 8:41 AM
Whenever i'm with you, i await for the second you say, ''I love you'' and that i belong to youLike lettuce, with layer after layer of faults, evils, immoralities, childishness etc but once those layers have been removed, it is left with a soft, smooth, as though a very virtuous inside. Exactly like him, a lettuce. He may look indecent with his behavior and attitude but inside of him, he is full of purity, gentleness, gracious and charm. One of a kind, no doubt he is! (:
To have someone who could put up with your disastrous attitude, terrible behavior and awful conducts, he is definitely worth the keep. I was very temperamental. I could just burst out with rage even over a slightest thing. I could just go sulking forever without having a second thought for him. In short, i always do things irrationally and run away from situations. Every time that happens, he never fails to be there, to remedy all mistakes, even if it takes him to contact me for 100 of miss calls through the night or to search for me around the whole campus. Tell me, where can i find this kind of patient boy again? For that, i truly look up to him, admired his patience.
Boy, i never doubt this love of yours. I never doubt your words. I never doubt your actions. True love is not having calls on the phone. True love is not going out to catch movie. True love is not having dinner together. True love is not posting up the three words at you fb account. True love... True love is not just that. True love, it requires sacrifices. It may not always end up with a happy ever after. It may not always fetch up a graceful happiness. A contentment to know that the heart will always unite despite every obstacles and that, though physically we are far but always near by the heart is just enough, enough to prove the love within.
I am a strict sister. Though i may seem passionately close to her, but when it comes to taking care of her, i am rigid. I never wanted her to go astray. I never wanted her to get influenced. Alhamdulillah, she's a girl with a firm stand. And that, i believe she knows what's wrong and what's right. Always, i would take note of all her friends that she's mixing with. There was once when she hasn't attain my trust. Every time i would notice her busy on the phone and get home late. Saw their photos several time. Worst thing when i know nothing about the person. Finally i decided to look into the matter and get things straight. I never care about age, all i care is my sister's safety. Had a long talk with him, gathering all information and thus, brought him home to meet the parents. In short, i never like seeing her getting all close with the opposite gender without informing us. Alhamdulillah, she finally received my trust and till now, she keeps it with her. For that, the knotted tie, i loosen it a little.
When i come think of it, if i were to foresee myself as a parent in years time, i would definitely be against the idea of relationship involvement in my children's life. Call me old fashioned, i would still forbid.
Because from my point of view, there is no such thing as a girl-boy relationship. It's either you are married or you are not. Well, somehow, it is like you are entering into a pre-marital relationship. Inadvertently, it can ruin the community by corrupting the people. Though sometimes children may say that they can control themselves and simply enjoy each others company but the fact that when they are alone together, there will be a third person between them, who would whisper and tempt them with the forbidden.
Thus, i rather have my future kid NOT to commit in any relationship matters. At least this can shun all avenues leading to corruption of the mind, body and soul. Basically it is like as though they have sadly fallen prey to the snares of Western society. Sad but true.
I used to be in a relationship before. That was due to the pressure i felt when my girls had one. I was 12 at that point of time. I was still naive. The parents disallowed but i still went on. I just hate the fact that i would have an ex or i would be someone's ex girlfriend. Thus, i carried on with the status, though my feelings had somehow varied. Even so, i never pursued directly. I then decided to sternly say no to girlfriend-boyfriend relationship to my kids in the future, so as to prevent them to make the mistake i did once and the awful feelings that has accompanied me ever since.
If i want my future kids to respect my decision, i should respect the parents decision too. From his sides as well. Because i would do the same thing like his parents, if i too were a parent. And i amply agree with the decision they have made. No girlfriend-boyfriend Relationship that is!
I should have understood better. Therefore from now onwards, it is best to separate the matters of the heart and the righteous deeds, which involves great responsibilities. If i cant achieve this, how am i to even become a human?
I believe we can, dearest you. Furthermore, remember we're doing the right thing (:
