Friday, October 1, 2010, 12:36 AM
Dee: We're grown ups. No more teenagers like before. We have to think long terms. We can't go on sticking with something that is not even near certainty.
You said i went to another because I'm worldly-minded. If i am marked by materialism, why did i choose you in the first place? I could have easily gone away with my beloved EX, who is already secured.... the one who never ending spent his cash on me, who bought me a $500 cell phone the moment he knew i was out of one, who transferred $100 into my bank account, who frequently fetched me from school and work with his own bike etc. He did that with his utmost sincerity to help me in a way or another without me asking him to. And even the transfers is out of my knowing. And he could even tell me to spend that cash for our(you&me) outing expenditure when i wanted to return it to him. Yes, to that very extend, his sincerity. Why did i choose you when i know that if compared to you, he's a husband material. And now, still you have the guts to say I'm materialistic when you very well know that i turned down a potential HUSBAND for you, who is from the start is not even near certainty about our relationship...... Yes, i took the risk... due to my strong feelings for you! Because i had faith in you despite all obstacles.
Just so you know the reason why i made that decision is all based on your actions. Reflect it once again. Don't point fingers. Now, let me bid you a farewell. Thus, you can go on silencing yourself without feeling any guilt in you. I'm doing you a favor, honey.
Thank God, I'm now strong enough to let go.
Anyway...... I had fun with the girls! Especially dinner. Like usual, i would be all selekeh when it comes to.... HAVING TO DINE WITH CHILLIES, MAYONNAISE, CURRY SAUCE etc. But then again, that only applies to whom I'm with. Hehe. So yup, i consumed the up-sized meal with an ignorance of the people around. Not only that.... with our uproarious laughter... that actually influenced the way i was eating, LOL! Ouh, i just love the moments... free to do what i wish to do without having to be cautious with people's judgement. Huhu.
Catching up was great. Many things were shared. Good advices were given and not only that, a splendid lectures was too not spared. But I'm loving it because those were from the sweethearts! (: Elfyee received a call from her darling Saidil in the middle of our date (GRR kacau daun jek, hehs)..... And so, being an imp (as always), i would sound all lovey dovey to Elfyee, just to over jealous him. So was Diyana. That was cute! Haha. And ouh..... did i hear wrongly from Dee... Both Saidil and Elfyee actually planned on tying the knots on a very auspicious date... eg; 121212 ehh? Awwww! Sweeet nya, aku pon naaaak! LOL! Dee, jom kita sesama. Ckp ngn Hilmi Mimi kau take care suda! You and Me, okay? hehe! :D oops! :x
I love my girls! (:
Sadly, Elfyee couldn't join us in taking up the Green line. Met up with my favorite someone over at Lavender station with Diyana's company. And off we went home together with Dee proceeded Pasir Ris and left us together heading MacD Bedok for supper before he sent me home.
p/s: Thanks to Elfyee's phone for the communication service between me and that favorite someone since my cell phone is out of batt. Teehee! (:
We can erase off the feelings but not the memories. One thing i learnt today while viewing some photos. To whom it may concern, your presence has inadvertently taught me a lot of things. And i verily thank you for that. So much. Very much! (:
