Friday, October 8, 2010, 11:18 AM
“People think a soul mate is your perfect fit, and that’s what everyone wants. But a true soul mate is a mirror, the person who shows you everything that’s holding you back, the person who brings you to your own attention so you can change your life. A true soul mate is probably the most important person you’ll ever meet, because they tear down your walls and smack you awake."
— Elizabeth Gilbert, Eat Pray Love
A beautiful movie, i believe. Thought of saving it for this upcoming date on Wednesday. That is if the other party agrees. Which i hope he would, together with Seoul Garden for lunch and JCO yoghurt for desert? (:
Get well soon, sweetie ---<--<@
Approximately three hours more before the supperhero buddy arrives to fetch me. Live Audio Overnite Bbq tonight. I miss the previous batch. Still remember how we would gather at the club room and talk about just anything. Especially during my 19th birthday. All thanks to both Superfarhan and the babygirl, Atikah for the surprise celebration. That was uberly sweet (:
Few days back i was free with nothing to do at home. Thus, i went down Diva Tamp 1 and had lunch with the little sister. Brought some food from home and had our meals at the top level. I never knew there were benches. I wanna have star gazing there one day, anyone? (:
While we were on our way to the New Look, somewhere beside the escalator, i gave a peck at little sister's cheek and she then returned one to me as well, like always. So yeah, we were being very intimately close with our arms around each other and all. Suddenly, a lady who was walking in front of us immediately stopped and gave us that stare, together with her left hand at her mouth, bitting her own fingers. You know that reaction........? Lol! We sisters then instantly looked at each other and straight away laughed boisterously. Haha. That was....... incredibly funny. I suppose, she must have thought that we were... lesbians? How naive. Lol!
When i reflect it once again, well... we shouldn't have really gone beyond the limits. Leading others to have false impression. Kan, secara tak sengaja, ia dah menimbulkan fitnah. hoho.
I smiled when i reread your message you sent me in the evening and i smiled again when i recalled your call which i received during the wee, before i went to bed. The contents were honeylike. And now, again I'm smiling as i think back the dream I had, with us walking happily hand in hand outside NYP McDonald ♥.
However, my heart is too saturated with aches. I may have said I've forgotten everything that had happened between us but the fact is, like you, i have not let the past go. It is still there, always there, at the back of my mind. Your presence has really made a huge impact on me. I still crave for your presence, i can't deny. And each time when you called me with loves, i fall. I became so weak that i couldn't bring myself up. But due to the fear, fear of losing you, i forced myself to stand back up on my feet and let go, despite how hard it is.
One more semester to go. 6 more months before we bid each other goodbye. 120 more days(excluding both weekends) before we go our separate ways. Like you said, Aidilfitri comes 1 month in 1 year. I shall then say... this last 6 months of us together as A9 comes once in our lifetime.
Either we make it... Or we break it...
just like the candles above, which were lighted up before us... it may look beautiful with the dark surrounding being illuminated. But at the same time, it could set the whole vicinity on fire.....
