Those 44 hours of no form of communication was simply devastation. It was as hard as learning how to read without you knowing the alphabeticals. Every second, the phone never left my eyes. Waiting and waiting, yet no beeping still. I dont dare to make the first move. The mind was baffled and the heart was in great torment that i didnt know what to do. And when the moment i chanced upon a penning, my mind straight away went haywire and clouded with negativities.However, thank god, i could still control myself and let go of the demon feeling. But the missing presence was too strong that i no longer could let the mind be in peace. Thus, i took
cousin with me to his area in hope that we could bump into each other. At least, i saw his unit. At least, i know that he's just some distance away from me. At least i know he's safe in his place. Even though he wasnt there right before me....
Before midnight, disputes arose. After ive sent out a mass message regarding class outing that was. I wanted an assurance but the path i took was a little too improper. Calls after which. After 44 hours, yes! Quarrels, misunderstandings, gosh i had enough. Thus i let out everything right from the bottom of my heart. Finally, our words became prosper, flourished with true words from the inside. He then proposed to meet.. in the cyber world. I was delighted. Nothing could beat that happiness in me at that point of time. Looking at him in his eyes was what i wanted ever since our last phone chat two nights ago.
Everything went well. Loved the way how he seranaded me with songs after songs, with his guitar he strummed melodiously.. And definitely how we would make fun of each other.. even over a slightest thing. Gosh, i'm missing him now. Until to a point whereby...... i concluded a solution for him... for us. I believe that is the best way for now. Days, weeks and months to come, i'm still in doubt.
Definitely i wanna go through this with you.... with our hearts unite that is. I once said that
we're connected because of school.. That will be proved wrong!
p/s: I give you my soul to have and to hold. And if ever you need me, close your eyes and ill be
there.... inside of you (:
Outing with Cousin Izan was awesome! I spent laughing most of the time, all thanks to her. Life is no easy. Talking to her realises me how lucky we are, despite whatever obstacles that might have put through for us. Because... if everything were to go according to our plans/wishes.. it verily means we're fortunate enough. But if it didnt, it shows how very lucky we are because the plans for us are according to God's. So never regret what life takes you to. There is a reason to it (:
Anyway.. I was having some talks with the cousin when the phone suddenly beeped. It was from an unknown number but strange that i somehow recognised the digits(very very rare for me eh! Because i never like memorising numbers UNLESS if it's really important) though i had no idea who was it from. After reading, i kept it back in the bag and continued with my doing. However later on, curiosity got the better of me so i decided to send a reply.
Beep beep, a message received, "Don't tell me it's not you Ain. I'm ur mom's friend son,"... Much to my surprised, i became paralysed! For a few seconds only! Heh. To shock to even move. Never had even a slightest idea i would get a message from him because.... he just dosen't really mix with girls like that and Cik Sam is the one who would always get hold of his phone. Funny how the mum wanted to matchmake her sons to us, sisters but the conversations and moves that her both sons made were out of her knowing. Hoho.
Lil sister: kalau tau mak nya, kiamat lah tu. hehe.
Ada ada je tau kaseh ni! Haha.
p/s: Merah hilang serinya tanpa Kehijauan. Moga bertemu lagi, walau hanya di alam mimpi.
